I’m melting and becoming part of the dull background.
Where I have held out my hand in kindness and care
All I see now are the flames of the devouring fire
Lit by disappointments, unsaid and awkward desires.

What do I make of a melting human kneeling in prayer
Do I try to put the flames out or stand still and stare?
The ignition took place when out of the dark corners
Explanations devoid of context or connection danced.

My meltdown is the process of thinking there is nothing
No feature in the desert where I now live, burning
From the heat that is inches away from no answers,
Questions won’t extinguish the fire only dancers!

From around the time the fire was started my heart
Bled all over the floor I tried to retrieve every part,
But the goo and sickly smell made me vomit flames
I now live heartless and try to remain calm in dullness.

I’m melting into a new shape that defies description
A remoulding of my personality so far from satisfaction,
You can smell my burning flesh during this meltdown
It pulls uncontrollable retches from way inside down.

Don’t look at me now I have melted away to almost zero
Leave me alone I can cope with unreliable explanations
That cast dozens of spears through me, where did they go?
I want them back to use against my newly unwanted foe