The drifting dream carries on

Is it a dream?
What I sense it seems
Like the drifting dream that carries on,
Flying over soft fields of buttercup words
Unable to land as yet, it’s absurd.

Dreams drift in and out and can’t settle,
I can see a wooded area where birds rejoice
Their songs fill my mind, it’s my choice,
I can’t join words to their shrills and whistles
But it is as maybe, it is after all a dream.

Sliding over mountains purple without rage
Their majesty projects an unrealistic stage
Who would want to climb every one of them?
There are those who consider themselves to be brave
They would try and try again, their face to save

To prove a kind of recklessness out far
Where with a grizzly bear they would spar
And blood would be their scant reward
What are they to prove, in this sliding dream?
Clouds tinged with the dying light of the day.

They glide into my gaze escape attention I’d say
I mean who notices them or their colour?
at least there is no argument about their sound
For there is none, a factor in their favour
I watch clouds as they drift into my hair

I kiss every facet of them, never is there a spare
Space I leave untouched, not this day.
In cities which drain their feelings,
What do people notice in the clouds, they say
“What clouds? I don’t see any, not at my feet”

As they hurry along never lifting an eye upwards.
Clinging on to gossamer thin wisps of droplets
I hunker down wishing my day was longer yet,
No surprises rise up in the cloudy domains
So disappointment will steadily release the reins.

Damp rows of roses dripping perfume into the air
The water from a tall pink tinted waterfall is there
Talking, as it does, to passing animals and birds
Swathes of yellow daffodils giving up their task
As tulips begin to show how to lower their masks

Lines of soldiers waiting to be taken to hell
In a boat made of past warriors bones which tell
What rain droplets will slowly slide along noses
The men watch them as water falls to the ground
Many dozens of frightened souls not a sound
From anyone, no questions are asked
Only insane Generals barking orders aloud.

Why can’t they walk along paths of roses
Throw away their weapons and uniforms
Naked amongst the bushes could become the norm
When a man takes his life into his own hands
who doesn’t lend it to another, to those insane for power,

Become part of nature and worship the importance
of real nature’s love that grows without interference.
Seeing the point of view from that of clouds drifting
Where questions of the mystical collide with prayer
Revealed to the world as the brightest lights of all

The mind is churning out messages to one and all
Try to capture one if you can
Hold tight keep it in your hand.
In meadows where grass grows the tallest I am surround
Listening as I do to every natural and sensual sound

Dig deep to find the brightest energy escaping around
What satisfaction in this natural place can be found?
Watching as the day starts to dim and shadows abound
Two nude lovers covered in soft red roses
They grasp the scent as their bodies are joined

The natural act of love they display and enjoy
The warmth of the tongue is the language of love
The stiffness of the wand is the gift from above
The wetness of the nest is the sign of the climax
The look upon their faces as at last they relax

Tells a story that can be told a thousand times over
A natural and sensual setting for the naked lovers.
Sweet talk rests softly upon their ears smiles are rich
Declarations of love are exchanged there is no hitch.
They join the drifting dream as it carries on

Thoughts they cannot pretend dance in the fires
Which reveal over and over again their deepest desires,
In warm feelings they melt into the natural vibrations
Upon which all in nature seek their satisfactions,
It’s not only flesh that can ask the right questions

Truth will stride with trust in the darkest hours,
keep your dreams in your hearts reveal only a little
let the strength of determination keep you from unsettled
dreams you have, those to which you are entitled
those to which you deserve, stay only within circles.

What do you want to be realised, listening to a call
that embraces a background of simmering gentleness,
leaving clues being an advocate for the natural oneness
realising our sensuality is vital to our emotional survival;
sitting upon a dune that cascades sand at every second

My mind’s eye goes out to sea and collects my memory,
that persuaded my inner self that there is more to see
than what we think we can perceive, dreams are electric
they are powered up by love and understanding, a trick
that we can all enjoy, every girl and every boy.

Lively are the shadows in the approaching night
Meaninglessness is the verse they wish to recite
I turn my back on it and wait for the following light
With eyes shut the drifting dream carries on.
With ears pricked all sounds are absorbed upon

An instruction from a thousand previous times
When darkness over took meaning and laughed
As it watched the pain taken on by many lovers
Those who were persuaded that paradise can be theirs
If only they would do as they were told, to be spared

Much worse than what was on offer – such is the evil
That comes readily to some without any real effort
It is as easy as taking a breath, controlling without thought
For the consequences to themselves and to others ensnared
With the lies the drama the sneering, with teeth bared

They take a dramatic bite from the inner mind and laugh.
Conclusions confusions and intrusions to the bleeding heart
Is not their concern, nor do they even know this little part.
In times when I feel that I want to collapse into small pieces
Drifting dreams are over head it’s their energy that releases

Pictures of how we really look to others – an alien aspect
For our own perceptions, a different opinion I expect
We receive as an honest description grips our hearts,
We cannot deny it nor do we wish to, not any part
Of the drifting dreams that carry on in to our past.

Future drifting carries weight so fine it is nought
Into every crevice of memory, every hidden word
There is a meaning waiting to be discovered
A drifting dream carries a thousand souls rejoicing,
The sound is powerful and rejects all false choosing

To resist the natural is like creating a dark situation
Where curses dance freely with fine attention
Could they not be knocked down to size at all
How much effort is needed to make them small
Insignificant ants that plague each and every heart,

We cast them aside we rehearse we play the part
We look to the heavens at last in every second
As we see the drifting dream that carries on.

I’m in Rapture, the lake will save me

My arms are outstretched and very wide 
As I try to capture you floating nearby,
Your rays of sun are hitting the backs of my eyes
And the dance of angels are just starting,
There are cascades of lights warming the air
As I go wandering in and out of clouds everywhere,
So that you can explore what the world wants of you,
Are you surprised the world takes notice of you;
I am not!
You are in the infinite variety of words and song,
I cannot choose the best of them, I am always wrong
But with you within my measure, I can feel right again,
I dance on the worn out ashes of time and space
I cannot joke with the moon nor look into its face,
But with you inside my private surrounds I can smile
You are the woman who is not content by taking a mile,
There are consequences for not being as one ought to,
I can’t explain it only revel in what was brought to
My attention as the sun sinks below its reason,
“Can you shoot me?” was my plaintive cry out loud,
There are words meant for horizons in unwanted colours.
Can you tell between lazy motives and love itself?
I have explanations in each of my pockets
And none of them made any sense, because my mouth was hidden.
Did I tell you about the warm sunny meadows inside my head
A thousand maybes if I didn’t but it is better isn’t it, instead
When I’m in rapture the lake is there to save me, cool me,
Stepping outside the grasslands and into the desert sands
Not bothered by the heat melting me, but I understand
You are not really there, you are outside of my warmest dreams.
Don’t give back all the words and songs I have given you please,
What will I do with them now they are used up, worn, old, shabby,
I prefer you as you are in strong womanhood you make me happy.

Never Mind, It’s Not Due

I just missed jumping on the bus
But I have the wrong trousers on
So I let it go passed me really
Crossing the tracks so early in the day
Never mind it is not due
Sad old hag on the line
I won’t wait for another bus
The embarrassment is too much,
I have inkwells in my pockets
They are filled with feathers
What do I do with them – red faced am I
Never mind it is not due,
But etching in the sand will never do
Because each character is only half seen
My ears are full of ice cream
And my desk wants to sail away at noon
But the sails are not ready
Besides I have lost my compass
So I will go Sainsbury’s instead
I will make a nest in the middle of my bed
And invite the pigs in for a party,
Did I really have my hair with a middle parting
Never mind it is not due
But then neither is the glue
When it is stuck inside the tube
I have given my television
A nice set of floral curtains
To match my thinning hair
Well, that is what I think, I don’t care
There are beetroot stains on my underwear
Don’t ask me,
I don’t know how they arrived there
Sitting in the sky avoiding the kites
I laughed out loud
The trees joined in too
My shirt has baked bean sauce all over them
I am not amused
I take off my clothes and sing the National Anthem
Saluting as a I go
Never mind it is not due.
With pencil gripped in the wrong hand
I am poised to spew
Out words that are anchored in anger
In deepest rancour I spit out the words
I drive my car into the buttercup field
And I briefly watch the lovers
I turn away looking for sanctuary
There is an oak with green tassles
Beckoning to me
“Turn on your smile, ignore the hassles”
What? This tree is talking to me,
Too many pills that is the cause
Songs were seeping from behind my back
I really must find my new desk
It is somewhere out to sea
I need the shipping forecast beneath me
In straw hat cane in hand I hear Leon sing
Ain’t Misbehavin’ now there’s a thing
Ain’t possible because I only want to sing,
I have a ladder in my inside pocket
I am going to paint the Pope black
See how he likes that
Never mind it is not due.
No new prescription for me
It is too much trouble anyway,
There are songs attached to my feet
I lift each one and a different lyric I can see
Meet me on the corner, treat me,
There are verses in my hair
What the hell are they doing there
I will place each one where they belong
Each with their own rhythm sublime
I am gardening with my teeth
But it is taking too long I will nod out
On this string of white powder
Never mind it is not due,
Did I write to myself today,
Must be a bad memory,
My toes are like bright torches
Showing me the way in to the darkness
I am whistling, hands in pockets
Nonchalantly without a care
Touching each bud on the rose tree
I praise their effort and they believe me
never mind it is not due,
this treasure we call air
might one day disappear
watch out be careful
don’t let the bastards take it away.
I can’t use plastic daffodils
As love tokens for Christ sake
What was I thinking of – oh the insult,
Maybe they should be plastic red roses
My calendar suddenly caught fire
I just stared in awe, drooling.
Each cigarette was painted in bright pink
But when lit they turned green
Strangest thing I have ever seen
With my calculator in my hand
Mobile phone in my mouth
I feel I am now ready to take on the world
God forbid, are you just talking nonsense?
Never mind it is not due

Fragments

My mind does that – you know thinks in fragments
The memory plays with fragments, small moments
Many days I have are fragmented by moods
Drifting here and there and god knows where
Why do I try to combine the bits I will never know
Because they don’t fit together correctly, so
I waste my time fixing this one thought with another.

Fuck it they won’t go here nor anywhere I can see,
Reluctant to throw them away I store each fragment
Until the weight of them cracks my reserve, I cry
Then the fragments mysteriously all join up without me
Doing a damn thing to them, leaving me wondering
What the hell was all that about – I will never know.

How can a life exist in a fragmented world of pieces
Of thoughts memories dreams and nightmares
Why does the fragmentation happen anyway?
To conjure confusion, sorrow, long forgotten
Places where I once was but cannot now remember,
For I have not been here before nor felt this way
Maybe I need to submerge myself in music and poems.

Go deep into my spiritual character shun the heavy stuff
Throw off the blood stained cloak dripping on the floor
Where all the knives were shoved into my back
Without me hardly knowing not feeling anything,
The cloak I want to see fragmented dead lying
On the floor gasping for air as I walk away again.

These verses keep on coming, what do you think?
Deeper than the usual – as I look under a tall pile
Of fragments – the knitting of the parts long gone
Into a past that wasn’t really me anyway, who cares?
The scars from the more jagged fragments a reminder
Of the faces of those who broke all my fragments
And throw them asunder and played tricks on me.

Pretending they held all the pieces in their hands
And telling me they would hand them to me one day
At the right time and place but it never happened.
So I sit here looking at all the fragments knowing
I can never mend them or put them back together,
Fragments rule the day and will not move over.

Will I ever learn to cast down all these fragments
Or will I have to learn the same lessons over again
All the time wondering where each piece has come from;
They want to be going somewhere much better than here
I know it I can feel it – when they reach their goal
They will form into perfect patterns of happiness
Pleasing to the eye uplifting of the heart no less.

It is then that I will understand why my life’s in fragments
Of what I really wanted and in the way I wanted them.
No more the fragments of promise no more deflection
But a large colourful picture of life as it should be
Something to be admired, something to be lived
In profound solid foundation, giving away nothing.

In Sad Rooms

These sad rooms are sitting with me
The seeds are scraps of paper
For me the writing is nearly over
Long tall shapeless the words be.

The skeleton rooms are growing dim
I sit through the calm
Whilst raging within
My sweaty palms
Are guiding me in
I’m wanting the eyes forever

For long is the night dim is the day
Like forgetting the only rhyme I had
For you are the smile I’m not so gay
You have a wooden life – not sad.

These rooms are sitting in calmness now
My empty eyes are not glowing
But please give me one last chance.
As I sit within my knowing.

I can’t sit I have to move
For the world is crazy without
I need the anchor I need the wind
But don’t ever let me out
I see your skirts I am your blouse
I want to get into your mind
Don’t let me drift don’t let me dream
Because I don’t want to be a friend.

The sun it drifts and the sky is mixed
My mind expands with a whim
You are in the midday of life
And I can’t seem to ever win

Don’t smile, don’t cry, don’t even breathe
For I am driving into the wind
The hills are steep and I won’t keep
Because the light is keeping me still
Don’t cry, don’t speak
For God’s sake don’t keep
My ears are bursting again.

The sky is mean but the sun is clear
I shan’t drift into you with a cloud
I am the river the rain the speed
So why don’t we write a rhythm
I am so slow, slither I am on the go
So please give a – come now!
Go now!
Please listen to me
Come in come thither
Please listen in
Tune in to me is my hearing that keen
The moon is dancing with us now.

Your voice your eyes
Are in my device
I want to keep them forever
Please let me skate
Please be my mate
We shall sing the song together
We shall sing the song together